last of these...

I hope some day I stop posting unfinished work on my blog... this is probably the last layout for awhile...this is a funny drawing because it romanticizes the all nighter. and I hate all nighters so much....because my life is full of them. character designs, caricatures etc., to come!

more layouts!! characters soon... sleep.. one day

poot

please just ignore the figures in the first painting... omg... more to come... someday!

environments?

the paintings, are just some quick studies for my actual painting which will be done traditionally! *yikes.

"Some day it may be possible" (a not drawing post, drawings... tommorow)

In my struggle to find my own artistic voice, and in times that I fall prey to  slumps of procrastination or feelings of inadequacy I find words from great men that keep me going.

Ronald Searle:



"Drawing for me has never been a case of therapy because I was shy, or not outstanding in physical activities, or anything else. It was a compulsion. I carried a sketchbook day and night, because I could not stop drawing. To sell a sketch was a pleasure, because it meant a little less economic worry and more freedom to explore. But if I had not sold, I still would not have stopped." 



"To me line is something which one can explore endlessly, and which keeps me in a constant feeling of excitement and adventure. I know I shall never live long enough to say and do all I want in line. I can only hope to get up each day, bursting to push the exploration a little further. But line is useless if one has nothing to say with it. The artist must be driven with the desire to express something, and use any device to achieve it. He must be perverse. Everybody will want to mold him to their pattern. But in the end he has to satisfy himself — or spend his life trying to please other people."



"If satisfaction with one’s work creeps in, the time has come to give up and take to prostitution. A sure sign that there is still hope is when one is miserable at not having met one’s own demands."


"The hand is feeble and the artist has still to express with exactitude what his brain conjures up."

characters!.....again!

these are a bit unfinished, and there's definitely problems to them. but really fun to draw.  I wish these managed to maintain the freedom and looseness my initial designs and sketches had. part  of the reason i think is because these are drawings designed for 2-d animation  (ugh) so... no texture or rendering... and that made it loose a lot of qualities that i loved about the originals.

drawing ain't easy

DUMP

Second year has been pretty great. I'm exhausted but I feel like I can still be pushing harder and improving more. so much to learn. I haven't even taken the oppurtunity to really push myself in my understanding of color, painting, or design yet. but there's just so much to learn its kind of overwhelming. so just some work I've done thus far. plenty more to come. 

dipper!

I love this show, this is... fan art?

Lady Lamp

I tried a number of poses, body shapes, styles and faces before settling with what's currently there. Ultimately this had some heavy handed influence by Tadahiro Uesugi whom I'm a big fan of. I've found that not using lines is a much more fun and interesting way for me to work cause i spend more time really  carving  out the shapes. additionally, I hate working in line with my bamboo, and thus bought myself a small cintiq! coming this friday, I will never do anything else but draw. 

this is both better and worse than i had hoped for.

more doodles

doodle cup o doodle style

WIP

Boy, all I've been doing this summer is studying. They make for boring posts and boring work. I need to take a break from that and really remember how much I love drawing. So I'll be posting some more work soon! (real work)

still alive

Sorry I've neglected you blog. I've been drawing in my sketchbooks mostly this summer (so far) and I had troubles with my laptops. Nothing exciting to post just thought I should post, to get that habit going again. BOO YA! Big ups to Alex Woo and Louie Gonzales for being great teachers, and really providing me with what I felt was a push in the right direction. They gave me back my sense of volition and purpose in art, that was drowned away by school. Their gesture drawing workshop was fantastic. and if/when I have the money I will for sure take their schoolism class.

something i read from an interview with a 4th year cal arts student I liked:

"I was encouraged at some point or another to draw in ink so I couldn’t fiddle around with details. It’s not for everybody, but it’s certainly helped me. That really forces me to make strong choices early on.

A former instructor once gave some advice on intuition. She explained that your gut instinct is usually right, and it’s not your ideas that lack worth. The whole journey of the artist might simply be the search for the tools you need to express your ideas more clearly. Thus, every artist has a different journey, because we all need different tools. In the end, trust in your ideas."

interiors

On a meaningful life

Just something I was thinking about. too busy to post artwork right now :(

"This is an old representation right? Atlas with the world. Well its a representation that says that's the proper way to live. That the way you live properly,so that you can withstand the nature of your own being is to pick up a load that's heavy enough so that if you carry it you can have some self respect.

That's a very weird idea because its frequently the case that people do everything they can to lighten their load, but the problem with carrying a light load is that you have nothing useful to do, all you have around you is meaningless suffering. and there's nothing worse for your soul than meaningless suffer.

If you look around you'll see the people you respect and I don't mean the ones you think about respecting. I mean the ones that your gut, your whole being, your embodied being tells you to respect. You'll see that its always people who've picked up something heavy and are carrying it successfully. You'll think now THAT'S what it means to be a human being. and when you see that you can think, well perhaps life is worthwhile despite the fact that the essential nature of life is suffering"
-Jordan Peterson

sketches!

Here's the new batch. Its hard to not see flaws in your own work isn't it? But that's okay I believe very deeply in showing your work, for several reasons. for one as Pascal Campion suggests, art isn't finished until someone else sees it. and secondly because the only way you over come your fears and insecurities is by voluntarily accepting them. By the way that's the meaning behind many religious stories and myths. Voluntary exposure to suffering and acceptance of your own vulnerability. Carl Jung often talked about the individuated man, and that the point of existence was to find something that you found meaningful to do with your time and to keep doing that thing, whatever it may be. Doing meaningful work with your life, is how you become a real individual. One that is capable of standing up to tyranny....I really believe that. lots of reasons for that.... holy shit I can go on forever. anyway here are some drawings. two of them will be paintings soon! and I will beg Jean for help with colors :D
enjoy.

Do I draw too many cute things?

SOTD

no more all nighters please.

SOTDS

SOTD (new process)

SOTD (or yesterdays)

sketches

Okay okay by the end of this week. I will post one finished piece rather than just daily sketches. I'm also going to start more indepth studies and sketches of environments and really start nailing composition. and adding tones to my drawing. LOTS to do LOTS to improve so little time.

drawings from class

Some are classmates some are just from my head. I've got to start drawing fully body drawings that are finished! and not just small thumbnails either. finished drawings. that's another new goal. so many goals....
so little sleep...

end of the day sketch

DUMP!

dump dump

"Not to feel exasperated or defeated or despondent because your days aren't packed with wise and moral actions. But to get back up when you fail, to celebrate behaving like a human—however imperfectly—and fully embrace the pursuit you've embarked on" - Marcus Aurelius

and this:

"Once you have a bigger purpose to drawing than learning how to draw,
you will learn faster. You will be more eager to understand
force, perspective, anatomy, and everything else that goes
into becoming a great draftsman,it starts with you and your humanity. Become hyper sensitive and present, live in the moment, When you drive,
feel the speed of the car, the weight. What happens when you go into a curve at fifty miles an hour? Don't talk on the phone, eat, or listen to the radio while driving.
Drive your car when you eat or drink, feel the food in your mouth,and the sensations that occur, while it travels down your throat into your stomach."


- Michael Matessi


and how this relates to that:


"Mindfulness practice means that we commit fully in each moment to be present;
inviting ourselves to interface with this moment in full awareness, with the
intention to embody as best we can an orientation of calmness, mindfulness,
and equanimity right here and right now.”
- Jon Kabat-Zinn,"


and of course


"Enthusiasm is the mother of effort, and without it nothing great was ever achieved."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson


oh and these words I promise to live by from now on!


"Draw ideas, not things; action, not poses; gestures not anatomical structures."

- Walt Stanchfield